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Unpacking Self-Care


'Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-preservation.” - Audre Lorde

I am currently sick with a common cold. It is the third time I have been sick in the last five weeks, and as more and more of my life gets postponed, cancelled, delayed, a question keeps tapping away at me. In what ways am I not looking after myself as I should be?

Clearly, getting sick so often in such rapid succession is telling me something. Other than what I always know – that I need to massively reduce the pressure I put on myself to do as much as I can – I don't know what it is just yet. But I will listen to myself and hear what comes.

It is well known that those who operate in the caring, helping or therapeutic sectors can struggle with self-care, though we are likely adept at helping or advising others to become better self-carers. We know the value of self-care, deeply, yet can fail to make the time to allow ourselves to reap the benefits.

The term 'self-care' is used a lot these days and this prevalence of use has also diluted the meaning of it to some extent. Anecdotally, in the wider community, 'self-care' can mean a shopping trip because you feel you deserve it, or a bar of chocolate, or some other superficiality lacking in responsibility; it can be seen as indulgence, rather than a considered act of self-nourishment designed to sustain and maintain our mental and physical wellbeing.

This isn't to say that shopping and chocolate can never be meaningful acts of self-care, of course. For some they can be, for others they can be a source of anxiety and so on. And what constitutes self-care one day may not constitute it the next – it is about in the moment awareness of the specific needs and availability of choices for that particular individual.

Because of this over-prevalence of use, I've moved to calling self-care 'refueling' or 'self-resourcing', or, as Audre Lorde says, 'self-preservation', as a more succinct descriptor. Self-care is not an indulgence; it is not giving into self-pitying behaviour, it is not shirking responsibility and it is not being selfish. Self-care is so much more and so much more meaningful than 'doing something nice for yourself'.

Over the last few years of various courses, learning, and listening to myself and others, I've unpacked 'self-care' into four sections – curious self-awareness, self-compassion, healthy boundaries, and resourcing – and this is the model I use when I facilitate self-care workshops.

Curious self-awareness

The first step is curious self-awareness & connection. Mindful self-awareness raises our ability to recognise when some self-care is needed, and how it is needed. Many people don't realise they are in need of some self-care intervention until it is too late and burn-out has hit. But this is still valuable information – by listening to our bodies, thoughts, behaviour and feelings when experiencing burnout, we now have a collection of 'red flags' to resource around for the future.

A good question to ask yourself is how do I know when I am burnt out? Or what tells me I need a break? Using the Choice Theory Total Behaviour paradigm, how do our thoughts, feelings, behaviours and body change, when we are nearing or at burnout? The reason for curiosity being a vital component of this exploration is exactly because it is an exploration. Without curiosity about our own inner process, we are unlikely to explore it. In addition, as long as curiosity is present, judgement cannot be, and self-judgement is the antithesis of self-care. As long as we have an attitude that is along the lines of I just want to fix the problem, it is unlikely any significant or beneficial change or growth will occur. However, with curiosity and mindfulness we can connect with ourselves, and therefore others, which is vital for sustaining our souls.

Self-compassion

Self compassion is a vital component in any self-care behaviour. If we are doing something because we feel we have to, or because we will berate ourselves if we don't, or because we have added 'self-care' to a list of tasks we must complete, this probably isn't a self-compassionate attitude. Again looking at our Total Behaviour when we are nearing burn out, we can ask ourselves: how can I introduce compassion to the four areas of my behaviour? Can I think self-compassionate thoughts, can I do things with self-compassion, can I talk to myself compassionately? Without self-compassion there can be no self-care.

Boundaries

A huge part of self-care is being aware of and respecting our boundaries, and looking upon them with compassion and no judgement. As we know, some people have incredibly rigid boundaries and some have very loose ones and some people have flexible boundaries. Awareness and flexibility is key.

Something you can try is to reflect on what the word 'boundary' brings up for you. If you were to imagine a boundary, any boundary, what might it look like? What is it made out of? What is its texture like? Is it moveable or stuck fast? Is it rigid or can it bend? Is it thin, thick, and so on? Is it strong, easy pushed through or somewhere in between? Do any images come up for you? This visualisation can tell us a lot of information about the quality of our boundaries. There is no wrong or right way to be boundaried. There is simply the boundary, and then the awareness of whether it is helpful or less helpful in any given situation. With this awareness we can make adjustments. What can we change about this particular boundary in this particular moment that might be more helpful for us?

Another reflection we can do is to take a look at what happens for us when a boundary gets tested. What happens in our Total Behaviour of thinking, feeling, doing and in our bodies? What helpful choices do we have when a boundary is tested? Can we create space for reflection? Can we resist blaming the other person or circumstance which is impinging on our boundary and take ownership of it and our subsequent choices in an attitude of self-compassion?

Sometimes we feel we have no choice in the moment but to allow our boundary to be pressed. Sometimes people or situations can overwhelm our capacity to hold up our boundaries. We may not have the tools we need in that moment. Creating a bit of space later to reflect self-compassionately on what happened for us can help us fill that toolbox. If you could go back to the moment what could you have done differently? This is not judging or blaming yourself. Ask yourself these questions with gentle self-love. If you feel too raw about the situation, wait a while before exploring it.

The same is true for when we have overly rigid boundaries and are doing ourselves a disservice – maybe keeping people at arm's length out of fear if they get too close they will hurt us in some way or abandon us. Again the key is compassionate awareness and asking yourself if this particular boundary with this particular person/situation is helping or hindering? How can we do things differently? How could this boundary be more helpful and conducive to our happiness? In an ideal world, if we had a magic wand, what would this boundary look like?

If you find that your boundaries can be more unhelpful than helpful for you, maybe think about exploring them with a therapist, who can work with you to realise healthier and happier boundaries, whatever size or shape they are.

Resourcing

When we feel burnt out, raw, sad, victimised, hurt, and all the other less pleasant emotional responses to life, resourcing ourselves is a key part in our self-care routing. We have internal, external and somatic resources at our disposal in any given moment. An example of an internal resource might be how we speak to ourselves around the issue at hand, what we tell ourselves about it, or what it says about us. We might focus on feeling gratitude for everything we value in our lives, we might focus on the love of a close friend, or a good memory. We might have inner strength and resilience to call on. We might have our ability to be patient.

An external resource might be texting or calling a friend. When I have down days I do this a lot – not necessarily to fill them in on what is happening for me, but often I send something silly or frivolous, knowing that they will likely connect back in kind. This gives me two things – connection with an other (which is anything but frivolous, no matter what frivolity is going on), and the opportunity to experience lightness – essential when we are burdened. If connecting with another person doesn't sit right with you, another external resource might be taking the dog out for a walk, taking yourself out for a coffee, reading a chapter of a novel, planning a weekend away - the list is endless and individual to you.

Somatic resourcing relates to the body. It could be doing yoga, the gym, going for a walk or run or swim. If that is too active for you you might try restorative yoga, or curl up on the couch under a blanket. You could hold your arms around yourself in a hug for few moments, close your eyes and allow yourself to feel the support of yourself. It could be the old self-care chestnut of having a bath, or doing a face mask – whatever suits you. You could try listening to a mindfulness body scan. You could lift weights. You could go to the seaside and feel the sun on your face and ice-cream in your mouth and salt on your skin, you could stand at a windy spot and spread your arms and feel the cleansing wind rush your entire body.

Bringing awareness to our resources can also cultivate another aspect of self care – gratitude for everything we have to hand – internal, external and somatic - probably a lot more than we thought we had. Without gratitude we may take the people and circumstances of our life for granted, not appreciate them, and therefore not feel their value in our lives. Tapping into gratitude, especially when we feel we are wanting, is vital in order to build our resilience and emotional strength. And showing others appreciation can often inspire them to show their appreciation of us – a beautiful side effect.

Self care/preservation/re-fueling is not just a behaviour – it is a way of being. It is a way of thinking, feeling and doing. It is a life philosophy, and it is vital self-preservation.

If you are interested in exploring all this and more, I run self-care retreat days for small groups in Dublin. You can visit our website for more information and feel free to email me with any queries or musings.

Authors Bio

Mia has a degree in Counselling and Psychotherapy and a diploma in Psychology. She holds a practitioners certificate in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and undertook the Dublin Rape Crisis Centre therapist training program for working with issues of sexual violence and childhood sexual abuse. She has worked in addiction and domestic abuse settings. She has a special interest in mindfulness, crisis counselling and trauma recovery.

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